monolouge, should I or shouldnt I?

For a teenage audience that’s enjoys monologues.

Here we go again, its happening all again. Why does this always happen to me? Why do I always get stuck in these situations? I shouldn’t have done it first, I shouldn’t have said anything. My cell phone always gets me into this, why did I have to respond. I don’t want to be involved in this I really don’t. Please someone help me out. What do I do? What should I do? This is the third time that this has happened to me it’s all my friends fault they always force me. Ok ill calm down ill just tell them that I don’t want to engage in such action. Like honestly it costs too much money, I should stop doing it. I have made my decision, even though they will think im soft I shouldn’t be peer pressured right? Isn’t that what the teachers always tell us. My friends do it all the time, I don’t know how they could afford it, like ill be honest I enjoy it and It makes me have a good time at party’s but its not always worth it is it? Straight up I don’t want to have a girlfriend, there I said it.